…and you open the door and you step inside; we’re inside our hearts. Now imagine your pain as a white ball of healing light. That’s right — your pain, the pain itself, is a white ball of healing light.
I don’t think so.
This is your life. Good to the last drop. Doesn’t get any better than this.
This is your life — and it’s ending one minute at a time.
This isn’t a seminar, and this isn’t a weekend retreat. Where you are now, you can’t even imagine what the bottom will be like. Only after disaster can we be resurrected. It’s only after you’ve lost everything that you’re free to do anything. Nothing is static; everything is evolving. Everything is falling apart.
This is your life. Doesn’t get any better than this. This is your life — and it’s ending one minute at a time.
You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake! You are the same decaying organic matter as everything else. We are all part of the same compost heap. We are the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.
You are not your bank account. You are not the clothes you wear. You are not the contents of your wallet. You are not your bowel cancer. You are not your grande latte. You are not the car you drive. You are not your fucking khakis!
You have to give up. You have to realize that someday you will die. Until you know that, you are useless.
I say, let me never be complete. I say, may I never be content. I say, deliver me from swedish furniture. I say, deliver me from clever art. I say, deliver me from clear skin and perfect teeth. I say, you have to give up. I say, evolve — and let the chips fall where they may.
This is your life. Doesn’t get any better than this. This is your life — and it’s ending one minute at a time.
You have to give up.
I want you to hit me as hard as you can!
Welcome to Fight Club. If this is your first night, you have to fight.
Michael Hanscom
Insomnia
I’ve been having some real problems sleeping for some reason lately — last night I went to bed and crashed out at 10pm, then was awake again at 1:30am, and couldn’t crash out until around 4am. Really, really annoying…so, in honor of my own sad state, I found the lyrics for “Insomnia” by Faithless (one of my favorite dance tracks).
I only smoke weed when I need to,
And I need to get some rest,
I confess, I burnt a hole in the matress,
Yes, yes, it was me, I plead guilty,
And on the count of three I pull back the duvet,
Make my way to the refrigerator,
One dry potato inside, no lie
Not even bread, jam,
When the light above my head went bam!
I can’t sleep, something’s all over me,
Greasy, insomnia please release me,
And let me dream about making mad love on the heath,
Tearing off tights with my teeth.
But there’s no relief,
I’m wide awake in my kitchen,
It’s dark and I’m lonely,
Oh, if I could only get some sleep,
Creeky noises make my skin creep,
I need to get some sleep,
I can’t get no sleep.
© Faithless (Maxi Jazz/Sister Bliss/Rollo)
Happy New Year!
Happy New Year, everyone, and welcome to 2001 — the real new millenium. Woohoo!
I rung in the new year at the Future Impact rave. That’s about it for now…been a good weekend, mostly just relaxing and watching X-Files.
New Year’s weekend
Hope everyone’s having a good New Years weekend. Mine’s been pretty quiet so far, but am planning on hitting a rave tomorrow night, hopefully that will be pretty cool.
Other than that, not a lot has been going on recently.
Time travel
If anyone ever tries to tell you that time travel is impossible, tell them to start looking into their family history.
After the family reunion of my dad’s side of the family that we had while on vacation, I got to talking with my mom about the genealogical records we had lying around the house. I’d looked at them a few years ago, but was interested again after seeing just how much family I actually had that was still alive and kicking. So, while I was over at the folks’ house for Christmas dinner, I grabbed the box-o-documents that we had, and spent about five hours last night going through it.
This stuff is just fascinating! While many of the branches peter out eventually, we’ve got one line that can be traced back to Richard Warren, who came to America on the Mayflower, and was the twelfth signer of the pilgrim’s compact when they arrived. I’ve also found records of ancestors who were in the Revolutionary war, homesteaders moving across America, soldiers in the Civil war…tons and tons of stuff. Really neat, and I’m hoping to be able to use some of the resources I’ve found on the ‘net to start filling in the blanks.
If all goes well, I might even be able to start finding a way to put some of this info up on my website here — the casual visitor may not be to interested in investigating it, but family members might, once I get it up. Woohoo! Another project…just what I need. :)
Merry Christmas!
Merry Christmas to everyone out there…hope you’re having a good one!
Lorelei Mackenzie Markin
I just got word from one of my closest friends that she had her baby this morning! Congratulations both to Miranda and her daughter, Lorelei Mackenzie Markin, both of whom are doing wonderfully well, I’m told.
Now that’s a Christmas present!
Congratulations Kevin and Emily!
I’m really not supposed to be doing stuff like this at work, but I wanted to put this up as soon as I heard.
I just got a visit from my dad, and it seems that my little brother (not that little anymore, he’s 24, but he’s still my little brother) proposed to his girlfriend Emily last night on Winter Solstice — and she accepted! The marriage won’t be for a couple of years, as Emily is going into the Peace Corps for two years, but I understand that they’ll be getting married once she gets back. Wow…. So, congratulations to my bro, Kevin Hanscom, and his lady love, Emily Shroyer — I’m looking forward to the wedding.
So…does this mean I might be an uncle in three years or so? ;)
Mononoke, eye candy, and John Doe
Well, seeing as how my life has one very happy coincidence that payday and video release day both happen on the same day every week…Tuesdays are my usual day to go out and get movies. Picked up quite the trio today, too. Here’s the scoop:
Princess Mononoke: A very impressive anime film that was released in Japan in ’97, and just hit the U.S. this year. I’ve never been very big into anime — I enjoy it, but there’s very little of it that I pick up — but even without seeing it, the unanimous good reviews that Mononoke got were enough to get me to add it to my collection. I just got done watching it, and was quite impressed — a good choice for my third anime DVD. Breathtaking animation, a very well-written story, and if you choose the English dub, a great translation by none other than Neil Gaiman. Well worth it, I’d say.
The Cell: Okay, okay, so if you take the time to really study it, it’s not that great of a movie — a contrived and predictable plot, with acting that occasionally has a tendency to push the limits of medocrity. However, for someone like me who’s always been fascinated with movie effects and visual work that veers towards the darker side (H.R. Giger and Dali are two of my favorite artists) and good audio mixing, this movie is an absolute treat to watch. Visually astounding every time you enter the dreamscapes of the characters, and an aural experience that is as much a treat for the ears as the visuals are for the eyes. Now, if only that much creativity had been put into the plot….
Se7en: While David Fincher is one of my favorite contemporary directors (he’s the director of Se7en, The Game, and Fight Club), I’d yet to pick up this movie, as the only edition out until today was a early “flipper” disc — the movie broke in the middle, and you had to flip the DVD to the second side to finish the movie. Well, thank goodness for New Line, because today marked the release of an incredibly extensive 2-disc special edition of Se7en — disc 1 for the movie and four commentary tracks, and disc 2 for a ton of supplementary material. This one will take hours and hours for me to go through — just the kind of release I like!
So, that’s it for this week. Between those three, and working my way through season 2 of the X-Files, I’ve got enough to keep me a couch potato for days lined up. Too bad I’ve got this silly thing called a job to get in the way…ah, well — since it’s the job that lets me indulge my movie collection, I guess I shouldn’t whine too much, eh?
[From Usenet: 12.19.00 0228]
[Note: This was originally a post to the alt.culture.alaska Usenet newsgroup. I’m including it here for completeness. Originally archived here.]
Hey all –
Just a quick note that I’m working on starting a new website tracking local Anchorage musicians, who’s playing where, things like that. Features on the site include a calendar of events, downloadable .mp3 files of some performances, and a BBS. I’m mainly focusing on underground/alternative stuff, from punk to rave to urban, but tend to wander all over the place depending on what information I get to post.
Feel free to stop by and take a look sometime…
http://djwudi.dyndns.org/akevents/
Thanks! :)